Readings for July 4, 2021
2 Corinthians 12:7-10
St. Augustine wrote, “If you have understood, then what you have understood is not God.” It seems Jesus’ friends and family in Capernaum thought they knew and understood who Jesus was. They had, after all, seen him grow up, knew his parents, knew his trade. But what they did not realize, or understand, was that Jesus was true Man, but also true God. And they could not see beyond the humanity of Jesus, neither seeing nor understanding his divinity.
Faith is tough. We are repeatedly called to believe what we may not understand and understand what we may not see (an intentionally confusing paraphrase of Hebrews 11:1). In our human limits, even with the profound discoveries of science, we simply cannot fully understand the greatness of the mystery of God. Accepting that we are not God, being in awe of the mystery, is faith. When we know our limits, and, at the same time, know that God is without limits, we can accept his sovereignty in our life, believing when He tells us, “my grace is sufficient for you.”
In my own prayer and faith life, I know that only when I embrace the unknown can I begin to believe the love of God for me. In all other times, when I fight to do it my own way, when I stubbornly hold onto that which I know, what I think I understand is not God. It is me. Only me. And why, if I wish to grow beyond what I have been to become what I want, to live my life to its fullest, would I not trust He who is without boundaries? If I believe I know everything, there is no need for hope. And if I want to hope for something more, then I must believe I don’t know everything. And, God Is.
My Lord God, I know that your grace is sufficient for me. I know that I must embrace the mystery of Your love and not seek to know everything or do everything myself. Yet I continue to push against the unknown. Help me, with Your continued grace, grow in faith. I ask this in Jesus’ name. Amen