Readings for September 27, 2020
When I come across something new or out of the ordinary, my initial reaction is often one of skepticism. There is something within me that needs to be convinced of what I have encountered. I think Jesus understands this initial reaction with those that did not, at first, believe John’s prophecy of the One Who Is to come. Jesus’ rebuke is not for the initial skepticism, but for the lingering disbelief when what was said would happen, happens.
There can be something healthy about an initial skepticism. It can, at times, lead me to a deeper study, changing my mind and heart. However, when I remain in disbelief, my skepticism becomes a stumbling block. I miss out on joy. I am, in fact, denying myself joy. Thinking I need to know it all, or thinking I do know it all, is selfishness. And in my selfish disbelief, I am not participating with others in the promises of Christ, where I am meant to be “united in heart, thinking one thing” in community with other believers.
My tendency is to talk about things for quite a while before I fully jump in. It took nearly two years of talking about maybe doing it before I started this blog. But I have studied enough scripture, read enough doctrine, prayed enough prayers to erase the initial skepticism of belief in Christ. It is time to forgo all of what blocks me from being all in and “complete my joy” by living my faith.
Lord Jesus, if my first answer is “no,” may my heart change so that I become obedient to your commands. May I act in humility but live boldly for your love. May I complete my joy in you and in your Church. Amen